"flatline" lyrics

It was bad, you were poison
The kind that feels so good, you don't even notice
Like the whiskey we had stolen
From your parents' liquor cabinet, we were unbeholden

To anything, seventeen, that's all I see
All these years later and rose-colored dreams
Then when I wake up I have to repeat
It was bad, you were poison

Oh, I let the time pass by
Let our love grow vines and watched as you faded
Oh, I miss your bed sometimes when you cross my mind
But I never say it

Oh, I'm runnin' tryna catch a past life
But, oh, I know if I make it there I'll flatline

If I called one more time, what would feel so alive
An indelible high, I'd be forever stayin'
Then you'd leave in the night, take your bags and a life
And I'd put up a fight

But that would be the day
I'd die, 'cause you don't want me (You don't want me)
I'd die, and they'd say, "What a shame"
He took her every heartbeat
'Cause she let him take and take and take

Oh, I let the time pass by
Let our love grow vines and watched as you faded (Oh)
Oh, I miss your bed sometimes when you cross my mind
But I never say it

Oh, I'm runnin' tryna catch a past life
But, oh, I know if I make it there, I'll flatline (If I'll make it there, I'll flatline)

If I'm being honest
I love you, I promised
To all of my friends that it's over and gone
Then I sit in my car and I cry like a baby
And all of the bad things you did are so hazy
And all of the good things are crystal and clear
You weren't a bad guy, it was just a bad year
It's funny, the damage time does when it heals, isn't it?

Oh, I let the time pass by
Let our love grow vines and watched as you faded