"for tortus (my cat)" lyrics

I've never seen the bottom of this heart
Except last night
Making up a script

I've never been so far away from home
I could never do another night alone

I promise that I never meant to kill myself
But look how long I've been without a cure

I often think of what I'm meant to be
Or if this is it
And I'll never start to like me

I wonder if I'll ever be
Or if someone will come and find me

I can't do this by myself
Cause I'm a fucking burn out
In my head
I'm dead
In my head
I wish I was