"Tightrope" lyrics

I keep tryna fit your mold but it ain't working
I don't wanna wear a mask inside your circus
All the lines we've crossed make us both uncertain
What we're juggling is underneath the surface

Paint a smile like a clown and show no tears
Flares up and we're waiting, now the smoke's clear
Being so high up was my worst fear

Now you got me tumbling down from this tightrope
Ain't no telling how much lower I might go
Spin me around on your pedestal
You're the star of the show, I'm the spectacle
Can't tell how many hoops I've jumped through
How many tricks must I do?
I'm losing my balance to get to you
On this tight rope

Being high means nothing when you crash down
Hard-headed, never knew when to back down
Use to be love but it's all just an act now
Second-guessing everything in our past now

Paint a smile like a clown and show no tears
Flares up and we're waiting, now the smoke's clear
Being so high up was my worst fear

Now you got me tumbling down from this tightrope
Ain't no telling how much lower I might go
Spin me around on your pedestal
You're the star of the show, I'm the spectacle
Can't tell how many hoops I've jumped through
How many tricks must I do?
I'm losing my balance to get to you
On this tight rope