"HIDE MY TEARS / LEFT TOO SOON" lyrics

Go where I never could go
I lost the meaning of life in the dreams that unfold
I couldn't sleep with the ghost
I couldn't be who you need when you need me the most

I been holding a place
Since the day that you came
I been building the stage
Till it crumble to waste
We keep fading away
But I wish that we don't
And what's worse than us dying
Is dying alone

We would talk bout life
We would talk bout you
Talk bout pain
When you want I'm true
When I wanna find love
But you left too soon
On the first night back
You was right I'd lose

If I turned back right would it take back time
If I never did drugs I would never get high
If I never found love it would never be mine
Now I wanna feel peace I don't wanna be right (this time)

I don't wanna fall again
So I hide my tears in the rain
I am falling (falling)
Falling (falling)
I'm falling again
I am falling (falling)
Falling (falling)
I'm falling again

I feel this like everyday I been dealing with shame tryna process the way that you left
Oh, you said you love me when you was around now I'm hearing you talk how I made you depressed
I'm tired of leaving I thought that we dead
And I know you got problems that I wasn't best
Now you stay uninvited inside of my head
I'm still searching for reasons to see what's ahead

Tryna go on
I don't wanna still feel but I can't stop
I keep staring at the ground stuck in my thoughts
I'm forgetting who I am and I get lost
I been steady thinking about life
How I bleed
How it never goes quite
How I think
And I'm sitting here again
Just all me
And I'm trying not to fall when I sink (when I sink)

I don't wanna fall again
So I hide my tears in the rain
I am falling (falling)
Falling (falling)
I'm falling again
I am falling (falling)
Falling (falling)
I'm falling again

I don't wanna fall again
So I hide my tears in the rain
I am falling (falling)
Falling (falling)
I'm falling again
I am falling (falling)
Falling (falling)
I'm falling again