"i'm at the end" lyrics
I feel the same
When I'm to blame
For listening to shame
I lost the peace
I had to take
For me to compensate
I close my eyes
And try to breath
I start to meditate
Upon the further places that my mind
Cant seem to let escape
Don't let me go
Don't let me find the road
Always seem to run away from home
My mother don't condone
Dad would feel the same when he was here but now he with the ghost
Living w my bros
Turned to smoke
From the overdose
Tryna find my truth so I just started writing songs
I write confession to a god about the ways I'm living wrong
About the ways I seek to cope when it gets quiet in my thoughts
Then I use and get to talking like it's chaos that I want
It's always hurt
It's never love
It's always numb
It's all the drugs
I'm getting tired
Giving up
I'm getting older
Losing touch
And seeking out
To feel enough
I'm insecure
And need to fuck
I feel the rush
She says my name
It's never love
It's always lust
I'm at the end we at the end
We play pretend we can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I should've tried to make amends
They always dying from their sins
I'm at the end we at the end
I'm scared of love I can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I never got to make amends
They always dying from their sins
If it's real I need to heal
I can't reveal the way I feel
I just sit with no emotions
Knowing how I lack appeal
I can see it in their eyes
They're getting scared it's not ideal
When I don't ever smile back
But I been listening forreal
It's just that simple conversation never seemed to strike the chord
I have a tendency to stay in space a problem getting bored
I thought I love you was a promise guess it isn't anymore
Cause my lover wasn't honest I no longer can afford
To give my heart away for free
I had an ex she had to cheat
Was all I saw a make believe
Just like a riddle
But on me
Blocked it out I've been a fien
Ruined all my dreams
I felt alright why did you leave
Now I'm pouring at the seams
As I'm lonelier than ever
Losing conscious tryna block it out
Tryna chase my dreams getting lost started chasing clout
I'm sorry to the people that I've hurt id never do it now
To those who had to pass just know I love you Imma hold it down
At the end we at the end
We play pretend we can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I should've tried to make amends
They always dying from their sins
I'm at the end we at the end
I'm scared to love I can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I never got to make amends
They always dying from their sins
When I'm to blame
For listening to shame
I lost the peace
I had to take
For me to compensate
I close my eyes
And try to breath
I start to meditate
Upon the further places that my mind
Cant seem to let escape
Don't let me go
Don't let me find the road
Always seem to run away from home
My mother don't condone
Dad would feel the same when he was here but now he with the ghost
Living w my bros
Turned to smoke
From the overdose
Tryna find my truth so I just started writing songs
I write confession to a god about the ways I'm living wrong
About the ways I seek to cope when it gets quiet in my thoughts
Then I use and get to talking like it's chaos that I want
It's always hurt
It's never love
It's always numb
It's all the drugs
I'm getting tired
Giving up
I'm getting older
Losing touch
And seeking out
To feel enough
I'm insecure
And need to fuck
I feel the rush
She says my name
It's never love
It's always lust
I'm at the end we at the end
We play pretend we can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I should've tried to make amends
They always dying from their sins
I'm at the end we at the end
I'm scared of love I can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I never got to make amends
They always dying from their sins
If it's real I need to heal
I can't reveal the way I feel
I just sit with no emotions
Knowing how I lack appeal
I can see it in their eyes
They're getting scared it's not ideal
When I don't ever smile back
But I been listening forreal
It's just that simple conversation never seemed to strike the chord
I have a tendency to stay in space a problem getting bored
I thought I love you was a promise guess it isn't anymore
Cause my lover wasn't honest I no longer can afford
To give my heart away for free
I had an ex she had to cheat
Was all I saw a make believe
Just like a riddle
But on me
Blocked it out I've been a fien
Ruined all my dreams
I felt alright why did you leave
Now I'm pouring at the seams
As I'm lonelier than ever
Losing conscious tryna block it out
Tryna chase my dreams getting lost started chasing clout
I'm sorry to the people that I've hurt id never do it now
To those who had to pass just know I love you Imma hold it down
At the end we at the end
We play pretend we can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I should've tried to make amends
They always dying from their sins
I'm at the end we at the end
I'm scared to love I can't begin
I lost my heart I lost a friend
I never got to make amends
They always dying from their sins
