"can't go out like this" lyrics

Can't go out like this
I cannot go out like this, yeah
Everything's so far away, I can feel the distance
How does it feel when tears freeze its a cold winter
Yeah, it hurts to be erased, but my [?] just linger

Doing damage
Doing fucking damage to my health
Too much to manage, it's why I can't ask nobody for help
Smoking in a cidadel with my dogs like Isabelle
Heads spinning carousel
I hate being by myself

In the hospital, praying for my mom to wake up
I've been off the drugs, praying I don't fucking wake up
We in this together
Ain't no one coming to save us
We in this together
We all bleeding from the same cuts

If you're having a fucking bad day
Just remember you're not having as bad a day as me

Can't go out like this
I cannot go out like this, yeah
Everything's so far away I can feel the distance
How does it feel when tears freeze its a cold winter
Yeah, it hurts to be erased, but my [?] just linger

I hope that you break free from all that plagues you
I have a space inside my heart, I could never hate you
I can't believe that all my fears really fucking came true
Even though my heart is broken, I can never blame you
Turn the lights off
I can see with my eyes closed
Sinking feeling in my throat
Do you still think of me now?