"why me" lyrics

There was a time when I was young and innocent
That was before I let everybody get in my head
Before the trauma all the lies and all the pain
Before I hurt so bad I had to change my name
Before manipulations cracked foundations
Moments that would test my patience
Prayers to God to take it all away
Before I felt all of the self-blame eat at me
Before I felt the devil crushing me
And nobody could hear me scream
Before I asked God
Why me?

I've been loyal I've been patient
I said hallowed be thy name
I didn't asked to be apart of this wicked little game
There was a time when I had no doubt in mind
Thought that I was chosen
Wouldn't lose no hope in you
Then I got older thoughts turned into boulders
World fell on my shoulders
The thought of death became kinda comforting
I wondered when death was gonna come for me
I've been loyal I've been patient
I said hallowed be thy name
I didn't asked to be apart of this wicked little game
Every man of God I ask said that I should be ashamed
So I had to tell myself that I am not the one to blame
I am not the one to blame
I am not the one to blame
I am not the one who should feel shame

There was a time when I was young and innocent
That was before I let everybody get in my head
Before the trauma all the lies and all the pain
Before I hurt so bad I had to change my name
Before manipulations cracked foundations
Moments that would test my patience
Prayers to God to take it all away
Before I felt all of the self-blame eat at me
Before I felt the devil crushing me
And nobody could hear me scream
Before I asked God
Why me?

There was a time when I was young and innocent
That was before I let everybody get in my head
Before the trauma all the lies and all the pain
Before I hurt so bad I had to change my name
Before manipulations cracked foundations
Moments that would test my patience
Prayers to God to take it all away
Before I felt all of the self-blame eat at me
Before I felt the devil crushing me
And nobody could hear me scream
Before I asked God
Why me?