"almost" lyrics

I won't break apart
Couldn't say bye to my mama
Cuz I might break her heart
Two years after thinking
Of ending all the pain
I forgot what it really meant
To live like how I wanted
I won't break apart

Long nights
In the wrong fights
Didn't own mine
Fuck life
Anywhere I go
I don't feel at home
No one
Left to cope with
Was all on my own
Nobody to talk to
No confidence
Yeah
Parents only wanna see on weekends
Learned the truth about the family situations
I've been piling up the drugs for all the sleep ins

Yet I'm still here
Thinking about us
A lot of if's and could've maybes
But I guess this is what made me
But I guess this is what
Yet I'm still here
Thinking about me
So damn glad I didn't chase you
Cuz I know I need to live for
Myself and those around me

I won't break apart
Couldn't say bye to my mama
Cuz I might break up her heart
Two years after thinking
Of ending all the pain
I forgot what it really meant
To live like how I wanted
I won't break apart

Now I know
How I should
Treat myself when I'm on the low
Now I know
How I could
Change my ways to better myself
Now you know
Why I stay
Quiet in the crowds that you go
Now you know
Why I take
All the blame so that I can let go

(I won't break apart)
(I won't break apart)