"believe in myself" lyrics

I was losing myself
Eyes closed deathbed
I see my mama ballin' beside my bed
I know they're just bad dreams
Or that's what I believed
However as time passed by
I feared it became my enemy
The people I used to call friends
All went their separate paths
I wondered if I was the only one who worried
I didn't want to hide my fear anymore
The thought of what I had accomplished so far
Only destroys me inside

I just wanna believe in myself
I'm afraid of becoming a failure
I just wanna believe in myself
Yeah yeah

It's too early to say what I am
An artist in the making but no killer
If people are talking about role models
They're talking about my brother
Of course I couldn't admit it face to face

It's a true fact I can't believe it
He a leader and I'm not very vivid
A thinker he maybe but I ain't with it
He a rare gem and I'm feeling common

I just wanna believe in myself
I'm afraid of becoming a failure
I just wanna believe in myself
Yeah