"spiderwebs" lyrics

It's wintertime
In my mind
Out my head
Overtime

Out of line
Underslept
Under read
Over grind
Under fed

Tore me to pieces
And tossed me like wonderbread
Nothing's been looking up
Feelings (breathe) keep cooking up

Monster in my closet
Me and him hooking up
'Cause it's fight or it's flight
So I'm on a plane every night

And I beat up myself
Till I eat up myself
Up, down, left, right
Yeah, I cheat on myself

Focused on times when
I needed your help
But you left me a mess
I can't clean up myself

I'm trapped in spiderwebs
Made from things you said
And promised
I just can't pretend
All this pain will end
No stopping

These self-destructive
Thoughts stay with me all the time
You got me locked in
I'm trapped in
I'm trapped in
Your design
Ooooooooo

Broken down zombie
Mechanics work on me
I can't figure it out
You don't want me?

Trust me, I'm lying
I gave up, I'm trying
Got eyes in the back of my head
So stay silent

'Cause I see red
With thoughts of you mixed in it
Hateful
My veins cold like Michigan

Used to fixate on pictures of us
Now I see them and throw up my guts
Throw up my guts
This can't be love

Bury it deep down with nothing above
A bottomless pit where I'm never enough
Dream something's chasing me
But I can't run

I'm trapped in spiderwebs
Made from things you said
And promised
I just can't pretend
All this pain will end
No stopping

These self-destructive
Thoughts stay with me all the time
You got me locked in
I'm trapped in
I'm trapped in
Your design
Ooooooooo

I've been wrapped inside your spiderweb
I'm too far gone
Wrapped inside your spiderweb, I'm
Too far-
Too far-