"Up In Flames" lyrics

I've been beaten down
Alone and afraid
The waves keep crashing now
I'm feeling the weight
When things look good somehow
I throw it away
A part of me that's bound
To pull me the same

So I take the beatings
Make my own mess
My self-deceiving
Will surely see me dead
What can I say?
Take your name
Go on and burn me down

Open up the door (Door)
I'm the one who slammed it on me (On me)
Even up the score (Score)
That's the way it's got to be (Way it's got to be)
It knocked me to my knees
I'll get up and fight the pain
But I'm never gonna win this war
So I might as well just set it up in flame

I can't fix this now
I just hope it away
Spinning round and round
While I'm holding a blade
Should've made me proud
But I don't feel a thing
I tried to escape this doubt
But I'm making it pay

So I fake the feeling
Wait for what's next
Stare at the ceiling
Just hoping for the best
What can I say?
I'm to blame
Go on and burn me out

Open up the door (Door)
I'm the one who slammed it on me (On me)
Even up the score (Score)
That's the way it's got to be (Way it's got to be)
It knocked me to my knees
I'll get up and fight the pain
But I'm never gonna win this war
So I might as well just set it up in flame

Open up the door (Door)
I'm the one who slammed it on me (On me)
Even up the score (Score)
That's the way it's got to be (Way it's got to be)
It knocked me to my knees
I'll get up and fight the pain
But I'm never gonna win this war
So I might as well just set it up in flame