"Crash Out" lyrics

Another night, another motel bed
Fighting demons, they dancing in my head
Mama prays, but I ain't calling home
Cause it hurts too bad to hear her on the phone
And I don't wanna die, but I'm fading fast
Trapped in the future, changed my past
Can you hear me now as I'm blacking out?
I'm about to crash out
I'm about to crash out
I'm about to crash out

Walking on heaven, but I'm stuck in hellstorm
I don't wanna die, but I'm barely alive
Suicide, I'm trying to survive
If I don't wake up, tell him that I tried
Dream, I die tonight. I hope that I'm high

Sick to the change I put myself on
When I'm high, I feel I do no wrong
And I swear I wanna make it alright
But the devil's been sleeping in my bed all night
Drugs in my system like venom and blood
Tryna climb out, but I sink in the mud
Echoes in my head keep calling me back, back
Whispers of a life that's lost in the crack

Bout to crash out, fresh out through the flame
Burn all the clothes that carry my name
Fighting full air in a world full of smoke
Spell flames at my feet as I'm starting to choke
But I don't wanna die, not like this
Gotta find peace in the moment I miss
I've been fighting with my shadow in the dark
My shadow, looking for peace with a broken heart

Told my girl I'd clean up, but I lied
She don't pick up when I cry
I'm about to crash up

Looking on heaven, but I'm stuck in hellstorm
I don't wanna die, but I'm barely alive
I'll try to survive
If I don't wake up, tell him that I tried
Dream I die tonight, I hope that I'm high

Sick to the change I put myself on
When I'm high, I feel I do no wrong
And I swear I wanna make it all right
But the devil's been sleeping in my bed all night
I'm about to crash up
Looking on heaven, but I'm stuck in hellstorm
I don't wanna die, but I'm barely alive
I'll try to survive
If I don't wake up, tell him that I tried
Dream I die tonight, I hope that I'm high