"Flushing" lyrics

Used to ride that road that was dark and deep
With a trunk full of trouble ain't no time to sleep
Counting cash with a shaky hand
Living fast, not thinking like a man
Those late-night calls in a hotel full of smoke
I'm flushing the works, sinking my own boat
Look in the mirror, the reflection of a ghost
A gun in my hand and a knife to my throat

They said I'd never make it out alive
I was too deep in the game to ever survive
I let it go, all down the drain
All the smoke all the ghosts, and all the pain

I'm flushing the work
All down the drain
And it hurts so bad
I'm so ashamed

I woke up with a demon in my head again
Same fight same war I seem to never win
Tryna raise my babies while I'm drowning in sin
I'm tryna walk with God I don't know where to begin
I got eyes of an angel a heart of a king
Wash the dirt off my name
Wash the blood off of me
I was numb to the cold, blind to the tribe
Till I saw my son, sleeping on my lap

They said I'd never make it out alive
I was too deep in the game to ever survive
I let it go, all down the drain
All the smoke all the ghosts, and all the pain

I'm flushing the work
All down the drain
And it hurts so bad
I'm so ashamed

Used to numb the nights just to feel okay
Now I hold my daughter and I find my way
There's a war in my veins whispering my name
Tears of pain, running down my face
Ain't no love in these streets niggas always break the code
Friends turn foes when there's no coke for their nose
Momma cried, when I told her the truth
She said son, I never gave up on you

They said I'd never make it out alive
I was too deep in the game to ever survive
I let it go, all down the drain
All the smoke all the ghosts, and all the pain

I'm flushing the work
All down the drain
And it hurts so bad
I'm so ashamed
I'm so ashamed
Hurts so bad
And I'm so ashamed