"3:33" lyrics

I used to wake up every night at 3:33
I'd whisper to my phone what my brought me out of my sleep
I'd wake up every morning wondering what it could be
Turns out I'd always bitch about how shitty I am
I started taking pills to help me shut my mind off
I can't help but to feel that it'll never be enough
I needed something stronger to kill my anxiety
So I went down a rabbit hole of self destruction

And now I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it

I should keep it down but fuck it I just wanna scream
I've been this way since I was 15
Quiet and shy with low esteem
Always scared that I'll make people leave and cause a scene
Fucked up and numb, I don't feel a thing
I don't care what tomorrow could bring
As long as I have a glass in my hand
I'll be everything I hate but cannot escape

I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it
I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it

Heartbroken and alone
I feel so far from home
I'm heartbroken and alone
I feel so far from home
I won't make it on my own
I'm all alone
I feel so far from home
I won't make it on my own
I should keep it down but fuck it I just wanna scream

I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it
I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it

I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it
I'm dead
So dead
In my head
I made my bed
And now I lie in it