"Dead Weight" lyrics

Maybe I wanna be afraid
Maybe no one should've stayed
Maybe I should give them what they want

The more I learn about myself the harder I fall
It's no wonder my thoughts got so dark
I wasted half my life battling who I am
But I won't lose that fight

Throw me out like I'm dead weight
Scream it loud that I'm a mistake
But I'm still standing now
(I am finally free)
Throw me out like I'm dead weight
Punch me hard and hope I will break
But I'm still standing now
(I am finally free)

I tried to carry all the blame
Wear a mask, ignore the pain
It's like I'm stuck in a loop
A loop I can't escape

The more I learn about myself the harder I fall
It's no wonder my thoughts got so dark
I wasted half my life battling who I am
But I won't lose that fight

Throw me out like I'm dead weight
Scream it loud that I'm a mistake
But I'm still standing now
(I am finally free)
Throw me out like I'm dead weight
Punch me hard and hope I will break
But I'm still standing now
(I am finally free)

Every word I said
Echoes in my head
Do I deserve to be afraid?
Do I deserve the ones who stayed?
Or am I done running from my-
Running from my name?

Throw me out like I'm dead weight
Scream it loud that I'm a mistake
But I'm still standing now
(I am finally free)
Throw me out like I'm dead weight
Punch me hard and hope I will break
But I'm still standing now
(I am finally free)