"The Preacher" lyrics
Saved it for the preacher
The best listener I'd known
Told him it's confidential
Said his word was good as gold
Yet, he blurted to my mother
The abuser was my father
It was never worth the trouble
Now I'm struggling alone
So run and tell your mother
I've been suffering with this heart
Tried turning to religion
Thought I'd give it all to God
But he's not coming 'round
And neither is my lover
Now we've got two daughters
They're all I worship now
Not saying that they changed me
Saying nothing of the sort
Although things feel quite different
I'm still broken and absurd
But for once, I see the glimmer
See the beauty, it abounds
Although the healing never happened
I count two more reasons to stick around
So run and tell your mother
I've been suffering with this heart
Tried turning to religion
Thought I'd give it all to God
But he's not coming 'round
And neither is my lover
Now we've got two daughters
They're all I worship now
You know, you don't know what you don't know
But the body remembers, it remembers everything
I was six years old when I first recalled things getting bad
But I doubt that's when it started
That's when I woke up choking on nothing
Allergic to the air
Soot-smelling marijuana laced with a tinge of keep it to yourself
"If the police found out, they'd take me away," they said
My inhaler was a solution
But the solution was a stimulant that gave me panic attacks
You gave me panic attacks
Maybe the inhaler gave me a small glimmer of relief in the form of euphoria
Or at least I was breathing
The panic attacks got worse, so I started going to church
The church kept me safe from my father
But nothing kept me safe from the church
At least I was breathing
At least I was breathing
So run and tell your mother
I've been suffering with this heart
Tried turning to religion
Thought I'd give it all to god
But he's not coming 'round
And neither is my lover
Now we've got two daughters
They're all I worship now
The best listener I'd known
Told him it's confidential
Said his word was good as gold
Yet, he blurted to my mother
The abuser was my father
It was never worth the trouble
Now I'm struggling alone
So run and tell your mother
I've been suffering with this heart
Tried turning to religion
Thought I'd give it all to God
But he's not coming 'round
And neither is my lover
Now we've got two daughters
They're all I worship now
Not saying that they changed me
Saying nothing of the sort
Although things feel quite different
I'm still broken and absurd
But for once, I see the glimmer
See the beauty, it abounds
Although the healing never happened
I count two more reasons to stick around
So run and tell your mother
I've been suffering with this heart
Tried turning to religion
Thought I'd give it all to God
But he's not coming 'round
And neither is my lover
Now we've got two daughters
They're all I worship now
You know, you don't know what you don't know
But the body remembers, it remembers everything
I was six years old when I first recalled things getting bad
But I doubt that's when it started
That's when I woke up choking on nothing
Allergic to the air
Soot-smelling marijuana laced with a tinge of keep it to yourself
"If the police found out, they'd take me away," they said
My inhaler was a solution
But the solution was a stimulant that gave me panic attacks
You gave me panic attacks
Maybe the inhaler gave me a small glimmer of relief in the form of euphoria
Or at least I was breathing
The panic attacks got worse, so I started going to church
The church kept me safe from my father
But nothing kept me safe from the church
At least I was breathing
At least I was breathing
So run and tell your mother
I've been suffering with this heart
Tried turning to religion
Thought I'd give it all to god
But he's not coming 'round
And neither is my lover
Now we've got two daughters
They're all I worship now
