"I Stopped Trying" lyrics

Never get close when I want it
Every little spark has left me burned
Kinda wanna die when you get quiet
Maybe it's you I don't deserve

So at one point I stopped calling
In a few weeks we'll stop talking
Cause I'd rather break my own heart
Then to let you be what caused it
Honestly there's a part of me a that's scared I'll never find it
So at one point I stopped trying

Maybe I'm just a masochist
Maybe I'm scared that when we kiss I won't live
Up to who you think I am
And I'll be let down again

So at one point I stopped calling
In a few weeks we'll stop talking
Cause I'd rather break my own heart
Then to let you be what caused it
Honestly there's a part of me a that's scared I'll never find it
So at one point I stopped trying

In my own body
I'm out to get me
No you can't be what he wants
New York City
Was special to me
But I don't get what I want

So at one point I stopped calling
In a few weeks we'll stop talking
Cause I'd rather break my own heart
Then to let you be what caused it
Honestly there's a part of me a that's scared I'll never find it
So at one point I stopped trying