"The Pattern" lyrics

Oh, I finally learned a lesson
Every accusation is just a confession
Every prophecy's self-fulfilling
You can't change 'cause you're not willing

All this momentary meaning
All these ships so far from shore
All these cruel complications
All these fists straight to the jaw
That you ignore

Find a hill to die on
Or walk away, hey
You could keep your mouth shut
If you've got nothing to say

You see the pattern, and then pretend
It doesn't matter, and start again
You see the pattern, and then pretend
It doesn't matter
(And start again)

I was desperate to connect
Something bigger than myself
I blacked out halfway through a window
Woke up feeling like someone else

Now there's powders in the drinks
Absinthe is burning in the sink
And it's too late for fleeting glances
Whispered words or second chances

You find a hill to die on
To walk away, walk away
You can keep your mouth shut, hey
If you've got nothing to say

I see the pattern and then pretend
It doesn't matter, and start again
You see the pattern and then pretend
It doesn't matter

Find a hill to die on
You walk away
You can keep your mouth shut
If you've got nothing to say

I miss the mornings, miss the campaigns
I miss the evenings with myself
Where's the ocean? Where's my family?
Man, I feel like someone else

(Feel like someone else)

It doesn't matter, and start again
You see the pattern and then pretend
It doesn't matter