"Atlas" lyrics

Change my last name, hope that I can move on
If I ditch that name, still can't escape the hate I came from
The anxiety and all these feelings that cloud up my mind
And waste all my time
I've been living with no progress in my own life

Spent my life searching for a scapegoat
But it was just me in the end
Carrying the happiness of those I love
And my back is giving in

Another late night shift, off at four AM
Passed out on the couch again
I'll watch the sun rise over the James
And tell myself I'm not as fucked up as my friends

Anxiety ruined my life, be it in my home or my own mind
Can't clear my head to take it all in
I couldn't find a single reason

At one point I had a chance
But anger moved in and shook these steady hands
Changed my plans
Put doubt behind every word
Ten years too late so I bite the curb

Spent my life searching for a scapegoat
But it was just me in the end
Carrying the happiness of those I love
And my back is giving in
To be the exception to the selfishness in this borrowed, broken world
If I can't change, I'm just another boy who's far too concerned

It's all I know

There ain't a man in me
No I ain't much to see

Spent my life searching for a scapegoat
But it was just me in the end
Carrying the happiness of those I love
And my back is giving in
To be the exception to the selfishness in this borrowed, broken world
If I can't change, I'm just another boy who's far too concerned