"Unbecoming" lyrics

What if I told you I like my whiskey neat like a little green
To help me sleep
And I kiss boys that I just meet
What if I told you
Two months after he left
Met someone else and I said, yes, don't regret it for a minute that I did it

I bet you'd say it's unbecoming of me

But I ain't the pageant queen
That you wanted me to be
I'm sick and tired of runnin'
Just to try to earn your love
So I'm unlearning who I was
And I won't go back for nothin'
Maybe I'm just unbecoming

The girl who would smile
To try and hide the tears held that shit in for years
She disappeared
And now I'm standing in the mirror
And I like me better
With all of my tattoos
Yeah, I wear 'em like the truth I wish you knew
That I'm not doing this to you

I ain't the pageant queen
That you wanted me to be
I'm sick and tired of runnin'
Just to try to earn your love
So I'm unlearning who I was
And I won't go back for nothin'
Maybe I'm just unbecoming

Understandin'
Unbelieving all the lies and undoing all the damage
Uh-uh-huh, mmm-mmhmm

No, I ain't the pageant queen
That you wanted me to be
I'm sick and tired of runnin'
Just to try to earn your love
So I'm unlearning who I was
And I won't go back for nothin'
Maybe I'm just unbecoming

I think I love who I'm unbecoming