"Suicide" lyrics

Gotta get by any means
Can't let nobody stop my T's

I'm just maintaining
Excluding myself from the basic
I be so alone I can't take it
So much that I don't need so come on now
'Cause look where I came from
In Cali' I made it out
Nobody payed the way for me I made a route
Took those risks, took those L's
You took the safer route
Never knew the definition of good needle but I see it now
Now, now, now yeah, oh
Got lost in a cloud of smoke trying hang me from that rope
I'm just too uncontrollable
I always thought of suicide I can't lie
It's bigger than you and me it's for humanity
(Is this the place for me?)
I always thought of suicide
But I can't lie
Because I can't always die yeah, yeah