"Clandestine" lyrics

I'm visionary
I've seen it in my dreams
My eyes roll back and see what
I'm to be complete
Your apparition is reflected on me
The lights will flicker in the dark
Breathe
I can't escape you now my body's losing heat
And soon enough you'll stop my heart

I can't remember how it felt to be alive
And now I'm haunted by the thoughts of suicide
I used to see in color
Now I just see in shades of grey

Now I'm feeling faint
Can't think of words to say
I know you're trying to see through my opaque
Just wanna fade away
My feelings seem arcane
I just wanna pick up the gun
And taste on my bullet
Leadened and rusted
Silver lined tragedy
Haunting me
Bury me in a clandestine garden

The dirt will break away
Calcium and decay
And no one's gonna smell my blood
The trail's going cold now
I'm left here on my own now

Seeking all the demons now I wanna rest in peace
I feel my body fall apart
Leave and shut the door behind you

Swallow down the key
And leave the lock chained to my heart
(And leave the lock chained to my heart)

Now I'm feeling faint
Can't think of words to say
I know you're trying to see through my opaque
Just wanna fade away
My feelings seem arcane
I just wanna pick up the gun
And taste on my bullet
Leadened and rusted
Silver lined tragedy
Haunting me
Bury me in a clandestine garden

Bury me
Cover me in ashes
We go from dust to dust
And yet we rot
Six feet under
Lulling me into an earthy slumber
Take me
Up to the altar
Sacrifice me
(Don't wanna think about it)
Take my life please
(Don't wanna think about it)
(I'm standing in the panic)

I used to see in color
Now I just see in shades of grey

Now I'm feeling faint
Can't think of words to say
I know you're trying to see through my opaque
Just wanna fade away

My feelings seem arcane
I just wanna pick up the gun
And taste on my bullet
Leadened and rusted
Silver lined tragedy
Haunting me
Bury me in a clandestine garden

Goodbye
Bury me