"Coward" lyrics

Killing myself slowly, so no one notices
I have a pain growing, but I can't pinpoint it
You make me forget about those things sometimes
Hope I'm not using you to get through this ride

I'm a coward on the front line
I'm a hypocrite with my time
I've spoke bigger things than white lies
And I'm good at cutting my ties
But you scare me cause I really don't wanna fuck this up
That's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs
But I'm never pouring out this cup

I've set the bar so low for myself
That I trip over it every time I get up
How do I let myself get to the point where I'm laying in bed
Trying not to throw up
And it's not a worry cause everyone knows
That I practically do this shit for fun
Last week I looked myself right in the mirror
And I said "I hate us"

I'm a coward on the front line
I'm a hypocrite with my time
I've spoke bigger things than white lies
And I'm good at cutting my ties
But you scare me cause I really don't wanna fuck this up
That's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs
But I'm never pouring out this cup