"85th attempt" lyrics

35 nights I've been feeling like this
Imma die this time its my 85th attempt
Every time we talk I can start to forget
But I see it in my mind and I hate that shit

(When you left
I kind of freaked out
It was the worst thing to ever happen
Oh come on
You still had plenty of other things to live for right
Yeah
But deep down I just kept waiting for the day I finally see you again)

35 nights I've been feeling like this
Imma die this time its my 85th attempt
Every time we talk I can start to forget
But I see it in my mind and I hate that shit

Imma slit my wrist
Echoes in my mind when I say that shit
Imma slit my wrist
You leave every time that I start to be honest
You leave every time that I say Imma want it
You leave every time and I'm sorry I don't want it

Walking out the door and I wont come back
Cause its 26 years and my stuffs still packed
Hit me on my phone and I wont text back
If you want to get in touch baby come relax
Every time we talk think I go off-script
If you wanna hit me up you can take that risk
I live in a place where I don't exist
If I leave right now then I wont be missed
(Angelz)