"they dont come back" lyrics

I've been quiet since the day they called my phone
Told me you was gone and I was all alone
I swear I screamed but no sound came out
Just sat in the dark trying to figure it out
Your name still pop up in my favorites
And I still reach out like you gon' say
They told me to be strong, but I ain't brave
I'm just good at pretending, I'm okay

And they hug me, but it don't hit the same
They check in, but they don't know to wait
Grief ain't loud, it's quiet in your chest
Is waking up crying, no reason, no rest

They don't come back
And I don't know how to move past that
I don't want time to heal this pain
I just want you back, is that insane?
God took you and left me here
And I still talk to you hoping you'll hear
They say you're peace
But what about me?

I ain't smiled for real since the day you left
A fake laugh don't cover a heavy chest
I put on your hoodie just to breathe you in
Still sleep on your side like I'm saving it
People text me, checking in on your soul
But no one stays long just saying they know
And I hate to sound bitter or mean
But if they knew they'd still be on their knees

I don't need quotes or another damn prayer
I need one more second with you right here
Tell me again that you love me loud
So, I can hold you when the pain gets proud

'Cause they don't come back
And I'm left with pictures in silence
I talk to the sky, but I want your reply
Your laugh, your voice, your guidance
So, if you see me breaking, just know I'm trying
'Cause losing you felt like dying

Feel like dying