"Hold On" lyrics

Yeah, yeah
I'm dying inside
I'm dying inside
I feel like I'm crying inside
I'm looking at every single day and night, and every single day's flying by
Last year I almost died
I felt so lucky I was still alive
And when I say died I'm talking about the times that I almost died with the thoughts running through my mind
My purpose
My purpose
Cause I don't even feel like it's worth it
Every day I'm writing these verses
But I still feel so worthless
Now I'm looking I'm searching
For something that's going to last
I feel like it's something I lack
I'm not in the present I'm stuck in the past
I'm not trying to work no 9 to 5
To be honest I ain't trying to survive
I'm just trying to go chase my dream
Chase my dream while I'm still alive
I want to do what I love and impact this generation
Bring back this dedication
Ima do it now with no hesitation
Just gotta hold on one more second
Every day I wake up and I'm stressing
I don't even know if I can count my blessings
Every day just feels so depressing
Like, yeah
I really thought I was stronger
I'm strong but my God is stronger
I don't know if I can hold on any longer

I'm like hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just gotta keep pushing got to go on
Hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just got to keep pushing got to go on
Hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just got to keep pushing got to go on
Hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just got to keep pushing got to go on

Yeah, this life is do or die
Thoughts of suicide
But I can't
Cause I'm too alive
I'm talking like it's just you and I
But I'm still hurting
And the truth is I don't even feel like a real person
Cause I don't ever show my true emotions
I don't ever let people know what I've been going through
But I don't care what I'm supposed to do
Cause I'm showing you
I don't even know the highlights
I don't even know the highlights of my life
I just pray to God that my times right
Can only die once can't die twice
And I know that every day I be lying
I've been hurting but I'm telling you that I'm fine
I do this every day
And I do this all the time
I don't think I deserve it
But maybe it's in my mind
Or maybe it's in my mind
Or maybe I'm really fine
Maybe I spent time looking for the wrong signs
I hope you see the vision
Because at times I be blind
I feel like I'm on the edge
Like I'm about to cross the line
And it's like I'm in the ocean
Drowning in the deep end
Screaming, and I don't really know the reason
I look around me and all I'm seeing
Is people above the water still breathing
Yeah, I really thought I was stronger
I'm strong but my God is stronger
I don't know if I can hold on any longer

I'm like hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just gotta keep pushing got to go on
Hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just got to keep pushing got to go on
Hold on, hold on
Just one more night gotta hold on
Just one more day gotta hold on
Just got to keep pushing got to go on
Hold on, I can't do this