"Self-Destruct" lyrics

So why do I fall
For all my faults?
If I don't feel like dying (Dying)
I pull out the pin, I self-destruct

I see my scars and still I don't learn
You watch me burn inside a fire I set
I guess I've been holding onto every broken promise that I've ever made

So why do I fall for all of my faults?
If I don't feel like dying it shouldn't be this hard
It's under my skin, feel it in my bones
If I don't feel like dying
I pull out the pin, I self-destruct

I fall apart, I see no return
I've come to terms with the other side that's waiting paitient
And I can't break the cycle, what's the point?
Everything I touch ends up destroyed
I hold on to anything I can to fill the void
And it's a mess but
I guess I've been holding onto every broken promise that I've ever made

So why do I fall for all of my faults?
If I don't feel like dying it shouldn't be this hard
It's under my skin, feel it in my bones
If I don't feel like dying
I pull out the pin, I self-destruct

I leave the venom inside for ever
Will I keep the same energy, dead or alive?
I put it off, fucking lost but this' done to myself
No one's coming for help

So why do I fall for all of my faults?
If I don't feel like dying it shouldn't be this hard
It's under my skin, feel it in my bones
If I don't feel like dying
I pull out the pin, I self-destruct
I self-destruct