"toxicity" lyrics

For a second I thought I found someone true
Then he left me for another girl that's nothing new
And sometimes I get happy then I fail
I swear if I keep living I'll be in jail
'Cause all these bad decisions
They make me lose my vision

Why do I have to be the one to lose
And why can't I be the one to choose to die
It's not fair
I wish you were here

Pain is when I'm stuck on you
But you're not stuck on me
And love is when you wanna give up
'Cause you can hardly breathe
And giving up was never on option
But now I have no choice
'Cause there won't be a you and me toxicity

For a second I thought that it was real
Till I realized it's with you I just can't heal
And sometimes I can't take it anymore
And we'd fight like we're at war
You said that I've been changing
You even said I'm going crazy
Why do you never even take the blame, for once?
You left me to feel ashamed for months
It's not fair
But you don't care

Pain is when I'm stuck on you
But you're not stuck on me
And love is when you wanna give up
'Cause you can hardly breathe
And giving up was never on option
But now I have no choice
'Cause there won't be a you and me toxicity
No there won't be a you and me toxicity