"Human" lyrics
I always thought that I woulda felt different if I could accomplish my goals
But as I stare off the top of the mountain, I honestly never felt so alone
I never dealt with the demons inside of my head, I don't even know how I could cope
I've just been taking my life like a day at a time but it's been getting hard to ignore
Most of my time I been trapped in my mind, feel like I can't breathe but know that I'm fine
So why do I feel like I'm dying? I get so jealous when I look around and see everyone living
A life without trying, I know it's nothing like mine they say the pressure will make me a diamond
But pressure depressing, it feels like my life is defined by the weight of the world on my spine
I tell my family I'm fine, I know that they know that I'm lying
I feint the heart of a lion, I got a chip on my shoulder, can't break down and lose my composure
Way too bipolar, I know the world is my oyster, but yet I'm too caught up in searching for closure
Look in my eyes and I know you see pain, all of the things I attained
Made me feel empty, it's honestly strange, I think I only care about the chase
I think I'm caught up in another maze, most of the time, I wanna run away
Most of my problems I cannot escape, I tell myself that my problems are fake
Invalidate all the things I create, as long as I'm breathing then everything's straight
This life I'm living is barely existence, I question reality, feels so abysmal
I honestly wished it was different since I was still little, conflicted with all of these riddles
I'm careful where I put attention because energy is real inside of a dimension
I fill with emotion and all my attention's intending to feel like I'm not so dependent
On all of my vices and all of the stories I tell to myself, I think my ego just wants me to fail
Can't show the world that I'm honestly frail, can't show the world that I'm honestly scared
Scared of a world that I don't understand, I said dealing with pain is what made me a man
But I think I was wrong, should have said that instead do with pain is what made me human
But as I stare off the top of the mountain, I honestly never felt so alone
I never dealt with the demons inside of my head, I don't even know how I could cope
I've just been taking my life like a day at a time but it's been getting hard to ignore
Most of my time I been trapped in my mind, feel like I can't breathe but know that I'm fine
So why do I feel like I'm dying? I get so jealous when I look around and see everyone living
A life without trying, I know it's nothing like mine they say the pressure will make me a diamond
But pressure depressing, it feels like my life is defined by the weight of the world on my spine
I tell my family I'm fine, I know that they know that I'm lying
I feint the heart of a lion, I got a chip on my shoulder, can't break down and lose my composure
Way too bipolar, I know the world is my oyster, but yet I'm too caught up in searching for closure
Look in my eyes and I know you see pain, all of the things I attained
Made me feel empty, it's honestly strange, I think I only care about the chase
I think I'm caught up in another maze, most of the time, I wanna run away
Most of my problems I cannot escape, I tell myself that my problems are fake
Invalidate all the things I create, as long as I'm breathing then everything's straight
This life I'm living is barely existence, I question reality, feels so abysmal
I honestly wished it was different since I was still little, conflicted with all of these riddles
I'm careful where I put attention because energy is real inside of a dimension
I fill with emotion and all my attention's intending to feel like I'm not so dependent
On all of my vices and all of the stories I tell to myself, I think my ego just wants me to fail
Can't show the world that I'm honestly frail, can't show the world that I'm honestly scared
Scared of a world that I don't understand, I said dealing with pain is what made me a man
But I think I was wrong, should have said that instead do with pain is what made me human
