"Signs" lyrics

It seems like the weigh of the world's on my shoulders
Time's mooving faster
My heart's getting colder
I never call her just sex or come over
Will always regret it as soon as I'm sober
Don't know when I turned in that bad guy
I say I'll change but I don't try
I just keep living in the same lies
Looking for something I can't find
I don't want sympathy
I just want everything to happen differently
I can't make sense of the [?] that were said to me
Talk to my demons too much I need therapy
I fear that one day my thoughts gonna bury me
I waste so much of my time for clarity
Turn into monster, it's honestly scaring me
I talk to God, but I'm living [?]
Hard to believe when you feel the desperity
I still feel empty will always [?]
All of this money but nobody is there for me
I don't trust no one, I mean that sincerely
Really so where
It's getting embarassing
I don't feel it when I like most of these people
I think I'm jealous of most of these people
But then I hear [?]
I got problems you don't know
We see it and I know it too well
[?]
Now tell me you love me
Just show me you mean it
We always something that we can't believe it
Am I too selfish [?]
And I need a reason
I dance with a devil, I'm just chasing a feeling
I see my past and I stare at the ceiling
I live like most of my days
[?] stuck in a deep end
I just keep doing emotions
They think I'm doing the most
Really I don't like to talk much
Can't show you the way if I'm lost
I just keep doing emotions
They think I'm doing the most
Really I don't like to talk much
Can't show you the way if I'm lost