"Surface" lyrics
Say your dead race
When you answer
Guess you, darling, you partake in love
Sometimes I question God
And all the problems that He sent to me
I watched my mother suffer
That got burned into my memory
Darkness in my heart, it's hard for me to find serenity
I'm caught between my future and my self-destructive tendencies
Dealing with my problems through a series of avoidance
The boy who wanted family was seen as an annoyance
Afraid to show his gifts because his energy got stolen
Now he's desperate for a place to call home for just a moment
When no gives a fuck, you start repressing your emotions
And the bottle that I keep inside, I learned to hold an ocean
'Cause it's easier to run away then try to cope with
All the memories inside my head that I am so encroached with
It's hard to ask for help when you don't feel that you deserve it
I never asked for much and never needed to be perfect
But all my imperfections are the things that make me nervous
I gave it everything and then got treated like I'm worthless
Every single scar I have is deeper than the surface
And the smile I have is fake
'Cause deep inside I'm truly hurtin'
Life without a purpose, haven't found one
I'm still searching in the world that's truly cold and filled with evil
It's disturbing
Now I try to fill the void with temporary means
Know the castle that I sit in ain't as pretty as it seems
The walls around me close and they crackin' at the seams
And I'm constantly reminded of the things I'll never be
When you answer
Guess you, darling, you partake in love
Sometimes I question God
And all the problems that He sent to me
I watched my mother suffer
That got burned into my memory
Darkness in my heart, it's hard for me to find serenity
I'm caught between my future and my self-destructive tendencies
Dealing with my problems through a series of avoidance
The boy who wanted family was seen as an annoyance
Afraid to show his gifts because his energy got stolen
Now he's desperate for a place to call home for just a moment
When no gives a fuck, you start repressing your emotions
And the bottle that I keep inside, I learned to hold an ocean
'Cause it's easier to run away then try to cope with
All the memories inside my head that I am so encroached with
It's hard to ask for help when you don't feel that you deserve it
I never asked for much and never needed to be perfect
But all my imperfections are the things that make me nervous
I gave it everything and then got treated like I'm worthless
Every single scar I have is deeper than the surface
And the smile I have is fake
'Cause deep inside I'm truly hurtin'
Life without a purpose, haven't found one
I'm still searching in the world that's truly cold and filled with evil
It's disturbing
Now I try to fill the void with temporary means
Know the castle that I sit in ain't as pretty as it seems
The walls around me close and they crackin' at the seams
And I'm constantly reminded of the things I'll never be
