"Petals" lyrics

I've often wondered if there's ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for undividedness
And sought stability
A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flailing in the wind
Like golden petals scattering

And I miss you, dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you
But I miss you, dandelion
And even love you

I gravitated towards a patriarch
So young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life
Within a maze of misery
A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long, but finally
I fled to save my sanity

And I miss you, little sis and little brother
And I hope you realize
I'll always love you (Always love you)
And although you're struggling, you will recover
(We're gonna make it, maybe)
And I miss you, little sis and little brother

So many I considered closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping away at me
They turned their eyes away and went home to sleep
(Sleep, sleep, sleep)

And I missed a lot of life, but I'll recover
Though I know you really like to see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine, and really loved you
I really loved you (I guess I loved you)
I tried so hard, but you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
(Do-do-do-do-do)
Fly