"The Hell Of It" lyrics

Is it your conscience that keeps you from sleep?
Is it the promise you tried so hard to keep?
Is it the meeting you didn't try to avoid?
Is it the honesty you couldn't make breathe?
Is it the enemy you didn't want me to be?
Is it the candle in the window that burned your fingers?

I'm not immune to the things that you say
I stand alone at the end of the road
Ready for what may come

And if I don't make it to heaven
Don't be upset
You can wait a whole lifetime for answers you never get
And it seems like the price of love
Is more than anything you can bear
So if you don't make it to heaven
I'll be here for the hell of it

I can't open the door that's locked inside
Or share a secret you're trying to hide
Is it the fear of swimming out only to find it's too deep?

It's not that bad to let it all go
You can wait a little while and we can walk a mile
Ready for what may come

And if I don't make it to heaven
Don't be upset
You can wait a whole lifetime for answers you never get
And it seems like the price of love
Is more than anything you can bear
So if you don't make it to heaven
I'll be here for the hell of it

Sometimes I don't make it to heaven
Don't be upset
You can wait a whole lifetime for answers you never get
And it seems like the price of love
Is more than anything you can bear
So if you don't make it to heaven
I'll be here for the hell of it

I will be here
I will be here
I will be here
And it feels like you dreamed all your life
All I need to turn out bad
So if you don't make it to heaven
I'll be here for the hell of it
I will be here
I will be here