"On A Search" lyrics

I been on a search but I can't find what's missing
It's like I been looking for that little light to see it glisten
But I'm stuck in my head, I hope this perky take my pain away
They say the past the past but see these scars still remain today
Everything so temporary nothing last forever
No, I don't ask for much but can you tell it get better
And you stuck by my side so how the fuck can I upset ya
Two things that I trust be my gut and this Beretta

Say you love me, but you only come around when you need something
Time and time I gave you all my last, you ain't give me nothing
And I would throw it all if that meant I could see you win
But you wouldn't do the same for me, what the fuck you call a friend
No that ain't love, ain't trust, ain't loyalty
Blood don't mean shit I watch a snake pick off his family
Thought I left my demons in the past but they after me
Baby please don't play around cause you going get attached to me
I got a heart filled with love and hate
Twenty years and I can't express my feelings
Never open up cause I feel like they don't care enough
Sometimes I wish I had no feelings at all

I been on a search but I can't find what's missing
It's like I been looking for that little light to see it glisten
But I'm stuck in my head, I hope this perky take my pain away
They say the past the past but see these scars still remain today
Everything so temporary nothing last forever
No I don't ask for much but can you tell it get better
And you stuck by my side so how the fuck can I upset ya
Two things that I trust be my gut and this Beretta