"For Now" lyrics

Don't know how to be happy, so I'm numb for now
No way out, behind my back, but I'ma run for now
Spending every second high really runs me down
Startin' to panic, going manic, when I'm comin' down

I been dealing with this for a while
Like it's only me who can figure it out
I don't want your sympathy, calm down
But I did feel better every time you were around

You could give 'em all your heart and they gon' use it for the next man
Every single time, there's no return on that investment
Deaf ears to your fake love, I know better than
I'm really getting fed up with comparisons

Touch on one sad subject, "you sound like juice"
Spill all my pain, uh-huh, that's cute
They be giving me opinions like I ever asked you
Middle fingers to ya face, pussy, I can laugh too

Go 'head pull up, I'll be sitting here waiting
Know I'm already dead inside, you can't break me
We can't go back to that, shit's changing
When I'm dead and gone forever they'll praise me

I created hell in my life as of lately
It ain't yo fault, but you still made me
Going in and out, wow, eyes dilating
I don't really mind, let it go, now I'm fading out

Don't know how to be happy, so I'm numb for now
No way out, behind my back, but I'ma run for now
Spending every second high really runs me down
Startin' to panic, going manic, when I'm comin' down

I been dealing with this for a while
Like it's only me who can figure it out
I don't want your sympathy, calm down
But I did feel better every time you were around

Don't know how to be happy, so I'm numb for now
No way out, behind my back, but I'ma run for now
Spending every second high really runs me down
Startin' to panic, going manic, when I'm comin' down