"REAL" lyrics

I'm real
And I'll prove it to you

I like to pretend that I'm perfect for everyone
And I do it for you
I'm real

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You made me think I had to change
My crazy brain
I'm not the same
I ran away

For you
'Cause I'm real

Sometimes
When I look at the sky
I feel like I don't know why
I'm alive
I'm breathing
I'm here
But I'm a heathen
And I don't know
What the point is
What's the reason
That I'm feeling
This way?

I'm a repeater
I cannot leave ya
But I cannot be here
Part of the reason
You don't understand me no more
I'm fighting the demons
I'm cutting them all away
Along with the teachers

But I love you still
And I hope that one day
You find someone else that you can kill
But I won't die
No I won't die
And I hope that someday someone comes
And makes you feel alive
A million times I recognized
The true weight of your motherfucking lies

'Cause I'm real
And I won't ever do it for you again