"Right Now" lyrics

I'm tryna look for the sunlight
And dance like no one's watching 'cause my God
The tears that keep on flowing through my eyes
It's dark, but I'm still clingin' to bright sides
Oh, I'm often off of the guidelines
Demons turn my dreams into fight night
Seems I can't forget I'm not right now
Breathin' just to stay in the right now

But can you light the path cause I been caught in black
Took like hundred jabs and ate em tryna find a way to double back, these niggas playing
P.S. shout my moms cause even though it was a troubled past the eating never ceased and neither did her two seater
Seeds of discord
I think I need to vent more
Cause now I'm 30,000 free falling with no rip cord
I'm warring with the good lord
In trouble with my bad self
Contemplating what it means to make it, that's a bad sale
Yeah

I'm tryna look for the sunlight
And dance like no one's watching 'cause my God
The tears that keep on flowing through my eyes
It's dark, but I'm still clingin' to bright sides
Oh, I'm often off of the guidelines
Demons turn my dreams into fight night
Seems I can't forget I'm not right now
Breathin' just to stay in the right now

And through all of the bygones
I can't find no shoulder to cry on
I can feel pressure risin' up too close to the brink
And after all of this, I hope I can find my hill I would die on
These feelings comin' too fast for me from good to disaster
Sun to shade in a blink

I'm tryna look for the sunlight
And dance like no one's watching 'cause my God
The tears that keep on flowing through my eyes
It's dark, but I'm still clingin' to bright sides
Oh, I'm often off of the guidelines
Demons turn my dreams into fight night
Seems I can't forget I'm not right now
Breathin' just to stay in the right now