"Deal With It Myself" lyrics

Pull up swanging get my fix and swerve them lanes
Could of changed like way back then but it's still the same shit
Focused on the wrong things I can't blame nobody else
I could help you deal with yo pain but got hard times dealing with it myself
No help, I take pride in being alone and I pro'ly shouldn't but oh well

I ain't picking up none of them phone calls
I don't want hear no complaints when it's people in stone walls
Thought I told y'all ain't no getting back up if you don't fall
Need you to see the good in me see no flaws
But I'm still trying to get right I ain't living by no laws
But God's
Raised the bar still ride with a rod
Can't go just yet I still ain't got done solving some of these problems
Ain't low just yet 'til you get all the way to the top and it feel like the bottom
Tell the lord forgive my sins 'cause I know damn well he ain't forgot 'em
I got so far
All this money ain't even much change me just opened old scars
And I'm trying to get better with time don't know why it's so hard

Roll up way too much
I used to bottle my feelings in now I just fill my cups
I was so tired if a broken heart now I'm tired of dealing with lust
I was so tired of not having shit now I'm tired of not knowing who to trust

I don't want do more damaging but the damage it's been done
I don't want lose what I have but ain't good with managing these funds
If I lost all I call mine would you be mine I mean for none
If I don't get rid of this baggage I'm gon' drag it through these slums
Call the plug up I need some

Spent my whole life just trying get right but still do wrong
God hold my mind, God hold my soul, I'll hold my own
Forgive me now if I don't make time or don't come home
Know I could try but I'm so gone

Pull up swanging get my fix and swerve them lanes could of changed like way back then but it's still the same shit
Focused on the wrong things I can't blame nobody else
I can't help you deal with yo pain I got hard times dealing with it myself