"FDYM interlude" lyrics

Lately I been thinking on how I sound hella vibrant
But when it ain't a mic involved man I sound hella lifeless
I'm adopting aliases I hope that you find them
And find joy besides career success, with someone that you vibe with
Cabinets of spices and some rices
But I cannot pull through and stay committed to a diet
I need therapy but can't afford it
Disassociate in real life so I don't think its important, they're like uh

Fuck do you mean?

I came to USA just to pursue a degree
And hopefully be someone bigger than anyone you know in less of the time that I've been
The feeling of putting my soul in the world to have people say I pulled em out of the deep
I only know what you feel cause I'm in it from time to time, I am not bleeding to bleed

Fuck do you mean?

You want me to blow up and I deserve more than somebody else dream? Fuck do you mean? You do not know me you just know a fragment of what you perceive, you go and pay me no mind like I'm fine and hit listen while I cannot even get sleep
I cannot even wake up without seeing my numbers and thinking what I could've been

Fuck do you mean?

I cannot even let music be what it could be, this could be 100 bars of me feeling myself feeling something for once feelin free
My conscience would not let that happen I got me some loans and a family that I gotta feed, all of music I'm really, grateful I just want like me the way you like me

And on some days it get easy, somedays it just don't, but slowly I'm finding my peace
And on some days it get easy, somedays it just don't, but slowly I'm finding my peace
Let me do me