"this songs not about u" lyrics

Aldn
I feel my soul fading
But it's not that hard
To feel like somewhat a friend
I just think and pretend
I just think and pretend
To love again

I just want recognition for everything I do
Can you look me in the eyes when I talk to you?
And I still think about it to this day
If I see you around, I'm gonna blow your brains
It feels like 2016
I was your first friend, you meant a lot to me
But all that changed when you started to scheme
I can't trust no one, now it's only me
Well, that feels good to get out
I just bottle it up 'til it comes out in a shout
And I don't wanna give up, I just wanna get out
I swear I'm trying my hardest to live in the now
Now

The calmness of winters
Snow falling down onto your cheeks
And everything feels so still
You're okay, you're okay