"Bittersweet" lyrics

Last night, I saw you as the victim in the fridge light
I wondered what I'd say to you in this life
'Cause my mind tends to veer toward the dark side
Where I think I did you wrong

On a screen you look happy, who am I to say?
'Cause I got what I wanted, for you, nothing changed
And I know you're not lonely, but I am today
Maybe I should call you up 'cause

Sometimes, I dream about you, don't know what it means
And I can't erase you, I feel like a fucking freak
I get defensive like you mean something to me
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm in-between, I'm bittersweet

Bittersweet, ah
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm in-between, I'm bittersweet
Bittersweet
Just talk to me
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm bittersweet

And now I hesitate at every bar I pass by
Autopsied our final words like ten times
When I cut my losses, left you at that roadside
Where I said I can't go on

I called it, I couldn't be out of the loop
Now we're strangers, we left it, the buttons went blue
And I wish we could talk now, it's too far removed from them
Still think I'm gonna call you up, 'cause

Sometimes, I dream about you, don't know what it means
I can't erase you, I feel like a fucking freak
I get defensive like you mean something to me
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm in-between, I'm bittersweet

Bittersweet, ah-ah
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm in-between, I'm bittersweet
Bittersweet
Just talk to me
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm bittersweet

Ah-ah, ah-ah
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm in-between
Ah-ah, no, oh
I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I'm in-between, I'm bittersweet