"My Demise" lyrics

I am
Everything I hate, I became
A person that I never meant to be
I push my mind into insanity
Welcome to my demise

I'm tired of living my life too fast
Tired of dwelling on mistakes, am I able to outlast?
Can't make it through, I'm stuck in a loop
Of an endless cycle, my life has been untrue

I am so damn helpless
Feeling just so meaningless
Why is everything overwhelming
My soul inside is slowly melting
My demise
Diving deeper into the hole I dug myself
My demise
Although my heart is dark I am still compelled

Feeling every single breath I take and I...
Push myself to the edge, I know that I'm
Holding on
To the things that are tearing me apart
So intoxicated I can't resist, can I...
Make it through the darkened days ahead that I'm
Holding on
Way too strong
Is this the beginning of my demise?

Welcome to my demise

I will burn
That is on my mind
For a million fucking times I'm believing in this lie
Decidophobia kicking down my door
With a trail of destruction from my life before
My demise
Diving deeper into the hole I dug myself
My demise
Although my heart is dark I am still compelled

Feeling every single breath I take and I...
Push myself to the edge, I know that I'm
Holding on
To the things that are tearing me apart
So intoxicated I can't resist, can I...
Make it through the darkened days ahead that I'm
Holding on
Way too strong
Is this the beginning of my demise?

I don't wanna be remembered
How I was living all my life yeah
I am falling off the edge and
Now I need to be someone else
Don't wanna be known for
Something that I never wanted
To be
And after my demise
I wanna be someone