"Bad Blood" lyrics

Looking back at all my past mistakes
Yeah, I've made a few, stuck in a pattern I can't break
It's like I can't control myself, even though I know
The past is poison
I need help

I've got bad blood in my veins
The pain, the pain
Round and round it goes
I've got bad blood in my veins
The shame, the shame
And nobody knows, I'm just barely holding on
I feel so weak but act so strong

I know that it's not all my fault
It doesn't help at all, knowing's not the same as feeling
Every time I raise my voice in anger
It's you I hear, crying out from the mirror

I've got bad blood in my veins
The pain, the pain
Round and round it goes
I've got bad blood in my veins
The shame, the shame
And nobody knows, I'm just barely holding on
I feel so weak but act so strong
I'm just barely holding on

Looking back at all my past mistakes
My own private hell, it's a prison I can't escape
Maybe one day I'll find a way
I don't think so
I fear I'm here to stay