"Contemplation Song" lyrics

Savor squares of sugar in my bedroom at one am
Curled up in a crevice, in your arms, openly condemned
My body's bleeding and you let it, don't wanna interrupt
Feel me like a firework and love me 'til I throw it up

I'm a creature of habit, caution and sin
I'm breaking my bones 'cause I don't know where they've been
I don't trust anyone but you're enough

I'll be fine
I'll be fine
Thank my lord and sleep it off
'Cause you're still mine

You're betting all your billions on what will surely go away
But if you make your demons you know you gotta stay
The user and abuser, you're a freak to try accuse her
You excuse her fear and bruise her 'til she's quiet
But it's alright
You're handsome when we fight

Drive me to church tomorrow, it's too far to walk
Not staying here tonight, get me home and then we'll talk
Love me forever, swear on God, then on your father's grave
I know he hit you, he just wasn't that brave

I need you like an addict needs a vice
I'm loyal like a promise with a price
You've got everything filed, treat me like a child
Lead me lovingly to paradise

Self-sacrifice

Fever faking, heart worth breaking
Words you're taking out my mouth
Leave me desperate, can't accept it
You're my respite when things go south

I'll take it like I'm tough
Am I animal enough?