"I Hate Hartley" lyrics

Seems like forever, like forever, like forever
Since I tore myself apart
Left my friends in the wake
Of countless tears and fading life
When I couldn't seem to grasp the life I lead
And the lives I touch, it's one year on now
One year on, one year on
Still I struggle by the same demons
I shed as I laid there lost in my head, lost in my head

Lost in this goddamn hospital bed
I'm not the same man, and I don't dare try
Try to uncover all the darkness I hide
It's like my demons are my lovers

But I've got friends by my side
I've got hope in my eyes
And dreams to aspire to
And the whole wide world to watch below
And death won't be my lover, oh
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left

Instead of trying to take my own life
It's one year on
And I'm stronger
I wanna live much longer
Not grow old and bitter
And not jaded and not hate what life gave me
Let the fear wash away
Let the demons blunt their claws
On a life that's full of mistakes
But always searching for much more
I won't die defeated

I won't die defeated
I won't die defeated
I won't die

'Cause I've got friends by my side
I've got hope in my eyes
And dreams to aspire to
And the whole wide world to watch below
And death won't be my lover, oh
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left

No, death won't be my lover, oh
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left