"Cross My Heart" lyrics

I am more than a number
I'm a feeling not a color
I'm a sacrifice
I gave up all my fears and my doubts
They say I gotta be a hero
But tell me who gone save me though
I paid the price
Don't you know the future's right now
Can you tell me who I'm supposed to be
If I can't be myself?
Tell me who's gonna help
Help me
So I

Cross my heart, I hope to live forever
I hope this pain don't last too long
Too long
Keep holding on, we all in this together
The war ain't over, carry on
Stay strong

It took a world emergency to get some break time
Took a pandemic just to make that FaceTime
Call I probably shoulda made last Fall
Didn't yesterday I say I'm gon do that tomorrow?
That's a everyday thought
So I prayed and I meditate hard
If I take a L, learned and I elevate yah
A'int no elevators on the stairway to heaven
God I ain't always quite clear on direction 'cause
Life ain't seem to go how I planned it
Things'll pop out and malfunction shout Janet
We always take for granted
What we think is set in granite
What if we didn't panic but instead we took advantage
Of the time that we got right now
I knew how shorty was when my mom timed out
I held her inside my arms, pain don't last too long
This ain't forever, it's just 'bout right now
I'll see you again

Can you tell me who I'm supposed to be
If I can't be myself?
Tell me who's gonna help
Help me
So I

Cross my heart, I hope to live forever
I hope this pain don't last too long
Too long
Keep holding on, we all in this together
The war ain't over, carry on
Stay strong
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