"The Closest" lyrics

I remember what it's like now
To try and fill the space in bed alone
And I'm back to wasting time, spending nights
Looking for love inside my phone
Have you ever been exhausted of yourself
Wish you could be wish somebody else
Knowing it's not really gonna help
So you try to find someone to make a start
Fit the role so you can play the part
And no one leaves a mark cause I'm so guarded with my heart

And it's broken
I'm so out of focus
Fucked up and you know it
I just can't see anything working out for me
Holding on to something
Hoping we can keep this going

Out of all the ones who got away
You got the closest
And there's a lotta ones who got away
But you got the closest

Tell me why am I
So fixed on missed connections
Mistake your kindness for affection
Make you the center of all of my attention
I kinda thought that you were into me
Why am I so damn good at overthinking things
Fallin' back in love and its killin' me
Cause I really see
Think I'm addicted to a certain kind of misery

I'm broken
I'm so fucking hopeless
Caught up in the moment
Trying to be patient waiting for the door to open
Crying cause it's closin'
We can't keep this goin'

Out of all the ones who got away
You got the closest
And there's a lotta ones who got away
But you got the closest
Yeah, you got the closest

Out of all the ones who got away
You got the closest
You got the closest
And there's a lotta ones who got away
But you got the closest
Oh, no no

Out of all the ones who got away
You got the closest
And there's a lotta ones who got away
But you got the closest
Oh, you got the closest