"The Dirt" lyrics

If I'm being honest
I'm not sure I really want this
I've been going through the motions slowly
Barely conscious
They tell me that I've lost it
'Cause I got everything I wanted
But I've been feeling hopeless lately
And I can't stop it

All I wanted was a way out
But I'm scared to look down just to find out
That I'm still on the ground
If I never even left the dirt
Can I really fall so hard it hurts?
If I leave now, am I paying the price?
For a dream that I'd be leaving behind
If I never even left the dirt
Can I really fall so hard, it hurts?

I know I should be cautious
'Cause I've been staking up the losses
What if everything I've built my hopes on turns out rotten?
Now I'm drowning in the voices In my head
They say I made my choices and my bed
And now I lie awake dreaming of paths I didn't take
I didn't take

All I wanted was a way out
But I'm scared to look down just to find out
That I'm still on the ground
If I never even left the dirt
Can I really fall so hard it hurts?
If I leave now, am I paying the price?
For a dream that I'd be leaving behind
If I never even left the dirt
Can I really fall so hard, it hurts?

Find me in the dirt

All I wanted was a way out
But I'm scared to look down just to find out
That I'm still on the ground
If I never even left the dirt
Can I really fall so hard it hurts?
If I leave now, am I paying the price? (Leave now)
For a dream that I'd be leaving behind (Dream that)
If I never even left the dirt
Can I really fall so hard that it hurts?

If I'm being honest
I'm not sure I really want this
I'm barely conscious
Can I really fall so hard, it hurts?