"Borrowed Time" lyrics

I'm looking back on a time when I could say
I actually thought I cared about you
But after everything I've been put through
I realize I've been living with false hope
It's drowning out my senses
I realize I've been living with false hope
It's drowning out my thoughts

This has gone oh so confusing
And I've only got myself to blame
I can't believe oh what was I thinking
I've only got myself to blame

You mean nothing to me - and you never fucking did

I can't stand to listen to your excuses anymore

I can only pray that you feel so alone
And a guilty conscience hangs over your head
I can't believe oh what was I thinking
And I've only got myself
To blame in all of this
(We're the only ones to blame)

I've got nothing to depend on
Oh I've got nothing to depend on

I realize
That I've been living with false hope
It's drowning out my senses
It's drowning out my thoughts
With nothing to depend on anymore

You mean nothing to me - and you never fucking did