"not this time" lyrics

I remember when I was young
Didn't know where I wanted to be
All I knew is I was on the run
Growing up had been chasing me
I got too far from the sun
I had questions running through my mind
Stupid problems in my head
They would lead on to my demise
I had no concept of death

So I took some shortcuts
Thought that would be enough
When I forget to slow down
I feel out of touch
Lost sight of everything
Oh I fell out of love
Party seems to slow down
As we're growing up

Could be something you never know
Say you love it then let it go
No not this time

Couple years when we're looking back
We let go of what we wish we had
No not this time

Last December when we first met
Gave me space knew I need to breathe
Gave me more knowing you'd get less
You're the first one to think of me
I was fucked up what a mess
Now I got you running through my mind
I get better everyday
If I got your hand then I'll be fine
Pretty eyes on a smiling face

So I took some shortcuts
Thought that would be enough
When I forget to slow down
I feel out of touch
Lost sight of everything
Oh I fell out of love
Party seems to slow down
As we're growing up

Could be something you never know
Say you love it then let it go
No not this time

Couple years when we're looking back
We let go of what we wish we had
No not this time

(No not this time...)
(not this not this not this time...)